Love and Concern

Wow.... This is the first time I had a chance to look at this site. Gail you did a great job. This is a perfect way to keep us, as a family, updated and together.

I am gonna vent for a second. I'm trying to be strong for everyone. My sister's, Pop's and of course my Momma. I cant say I know how you all feel. I just know I feel like I am going to explode. I have always been very protective of my family and to know there is not a damn thing I can do to make this go away just eats me up inside. I wish I could take this BS out of my mom and put it all into my head if God wants it in somebody. I wish I could be in her place and take her pain away. I would do it a MILLION times over and be completetly content just knowing my mom was herself again and not feeling any pain. It broke my heart when I was helping my mom into the house from her treatment and her legs gave out. I just about freaked. I was using all my strength to hold her up and not let her go down. I was telling her "Momma, you gotta help me, work with me here!" So I got her inside the house and got her onto the couch. She relaxed there for a while. I had to go inside my room for a minute to let go where she couldn't see me.The last thing I want is her to see me upset. THIS JUST SUCKS!! Anyways I just wanted to say I love my mom with all my heart and will do whatever she needs.

Love, Brandon
September 11, 2008 10:39 PM